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honestly, i just wanted to make a pdf, but i've been meaning to put it all into a word doc for sometime now anyway. it was written around the same time i wrote something else, in 2009. i had just started writing stories and i guess i wanted to have some variety to my output. so, i wrote this story about a 19 year old girl, told from her perspective and everything. i guess there's an authentic naivety to it. i like that phrase. especially in this context as it makes an excuse seem like a compliment.
i wrote a 3000 word version, which i showed to my then-girlfriend who said she wanted to read more. so i wrote more. i didn't know what to do with it so i published it as a blog. thanks to everyone that read it at the time. and by 'everyone' i mean red and dj. pretty sure it was just you guys.
people talk about their first attempts at something longer than a short story and i always feel like i want to read that. but they also always say they deleted it. maybe it's for the best. maybe what i am doing now is a mistake. it's true, i have doubts. i have doubts about people wanting to read 99 pages, short though they are, in a pdf document. but it seems inevitable i will always have doubts. about everything. all the time.
the only edits i made when making this was the last chapter - 25. i deleted it. the rest is there in it's original form. i couldn't bear to read all of it myself.
Mozart Plays the Violin - 99 page pdf